The man who wounded then-US president Ronald Reagan in 1981 has apologised for his actions and said he does not remember what he was feeling when he fired the shots that also wounded three others.
John Hinckley Jr told CBS Mornings in his first televised interview since he was freed from all court oversight this month that he feels sorry for all the lives his actions affected.
“I feel badly for all of them. I have true remorse for what I did,” Mr Hinckley said.
“I know that they probably can’t forgive me now, but I just want them to know that I am sorry for what I did.”
Going back to that day, Mr Hinckley recalled Mr Reagan walking out of the Washington Hilton after giving a speech: “And I was right there, and I fired shots at him, which so unfortunately hit other people, too.”
Asked what feelings led him to shoot, Mr Hinckley said he cannot remember those emotions and does not want to.
“It’s such another lifetime ago. I can’t tell you now the emotion I had right as (Mr Reagan) came walking out. I can’t tell you that,” he said, later adding: “It’s something I don’t want to remember.”
Mr Hinckley was 25 and suffering from acute psychosis when his gunshots wounded Mr Reagan and three others. The assassination attempt paralysed Mr Reagan’s press secretary James Brady, who died in 2014. It also wounded a police officer and a US Secret Service agent.
Mr Hinckley told Major Garrett, CBS News’ chief Washington correspondent, that he is glad he did not succeed. He said that at the time of the shooting he did “not have a good heart” and was doing things “a good person doesn’t do”.
Jurors found Mr Hinckley not guilty by reason of insanity and he spent decades at a mental hospital in Washington.
“I was not just a cold, calculating criminal in 1981,” he said.
“I truly believe I had a serious mental illness that was preventing me from knowing right from wrong back then.”
Mr Hinckley began making visits to his parents’ home in Williamsburg, Virginia, in the early 2000s. A 2016 court order granted him permission to live with his mother full time, albeit under various restrictions, after experts said his mental illness had been in remission for decades.
He signed a lease on a one-bedroom apartment in the Williamsburg area last year and has been living alone there with his cat, according to court documents. His mother died in July.
He has also been releasing songs online and looking for a venue willing to let him sing and play guitar before a live audience.
Mr Hinckley had previously been under restrictions that barred him from owning a gun, using drugs or alcohol or contacting members of the victims’ families.
But a federal judge in Washington had said months ago that he would free Mr Hinckley from those restrictions if he remained mentally stable. Those restrictions were lifted on June 15.
Tuesday’s apology was not Mr Hinckley’s first. His lawyer Barry Levine said during a court hearing last year that Mr Hinckley wanted to express his “heartfelt” apologies and “profound regret” to the people he shot and their families as well as to actress Jodie Foster, who he was obsessed with at the time of the shooting, and to the American people.
Mr Hinckley said he hopes to soften the public’s perception of him.
“I’m just trying to show people I’m kind of an ordinary guy who’s just trying to get along like everybody else,” he said.
But he doesn’t expect to see forgiveness from his victims, saying: “I really don’t think that the Brady family or the Reagan family or Jodie Foster – I don’t think they want to hear from me.
“I feel terrible for what I did,” he said. “If I could take it all back, I would. I swear – I would take it all back.”