Goody mother 'disgusted' with herself after cocaine film
Jade Goody’s mother Jackiey Budden vowed today that she would never do drugs again, saying she felt “disgusted” with herself.
Budden told ITV1’s This Morning how ashamed she is of her behaviour after the News of the World obtained film apparently showing the grandmother taking cocaine in Tenerife a few days before the anniversary of her daughter’s death, which falls today.
The 52-year-old was asked by 'This Morning' host Phillip Schofield about the allegations in yesterday’s newspapers.
She told the daytime show: “I feel absolutely disgusted with myself. What happened was I was going through a hell of a lot of s*** over in Tenerife as I was moving my things back.”
She added: “I don’t snort or anything, I’ve never ever done that in my life. Yes, I was a crackhead, but nine years clean, and I said: ’Do you know what - I’ll just take two lines’, and it was the biggest mistake I’ve ever done.”
She insisted: “I didn’t relapse back to a crackhead – I took two lines of coke.”
But she added: “I’m disgusted with myself and I mucked up.”
Asked by Schofield if she would remain clean, Budden replied: “Yeah, 100%. I feel physically sick and disgusted that I even done it.
“I just shouldn’t have done it and I did, and I’m really sorry, but I’m confident I won’t do it again.
“I mucked up but you will not get me back on this show on any kind of drug form again. That’s a promise.”
Speaking about the year since her daughter’s death after battling cancer, Budden said: “It’s been a rollercoaster basically.
“Since Jade has passed my life has just gone up and down and I’ve tried to make it and it went wrong, I tried to make it again and it went wrong but I’m missing her so much.”
